feeling LOW...

"刚开始的感情，是因为爱；稳定的感情，是习惯；习惯有他在的日子，那就是幸福" post by her.
and i miss her so much. she left me 3years ago...im still missing her.

Few days ago, FB was celebrating 10th anniversary... and launch a LookBack video to show what u have done with fb all the time, all the post, all the memory...

my first thought was...since it's gonna be fun just give a try, why not.
when i hit on the first play...i was hoping to see her appear on the video, no matter a photo, comment, post...even just name...but it gave me disappointment.

but then, luckily my present her appearing quite much in the video.
i love u. =)

sometime, i dare not to express too much about me and past her feeling or memory cause it might be not fair to present her. all i can do is just absorb by myself. 

A past is always will be the past, precious what u having now and treasure every single moment. 

I open my eyes， I have you in my world

I open my eyes， I have you in my world

Does it make you wonder?

Is it karma or is it fate

Is it you, or is it me

Oh does it really make you falter

Does it make you want to believe?

It is true, you’re like nobody else

I open my eyes; I have you in my world

Dear~i still miss u so badly...

hope u are doing fine in the heaven.

=)

If i whisper your name? Will i see u?

Another 20days...it is our 2nd aniversary...

Another 2months...it is your 1st aniversary...

Anywhere u are, im near

anywhere u go, I'll be there 

anytime u whisper my name, u'll see...

How about if i whisper your name? Will i see u?

(our only "oversea" trip at hatyai, sep'2010)

Gosh, i miss u so badly...

短暂的快乐,只能让我短暂的忘记过去。

It is so true.
 This year, something is missing out on my birthday...
but luckily, i still have bunch of friends to made my day on my big day.

 Last year, she were plan to surprise me out on my birthday.
Bring me to the place i never been...celebrate it with me.
Honestly these was the first birthday that i celebrate with my own gf.
 Make me feel good...memory deep in my heart.

 I been busy and running around lately. work and play,
Finding my own happiness with friends...
sometime i did hope she was here to share my joy with...
 Sometime when come to the god damn lonesome night,
make me feel hard after all this and that.

 "Why?"
Always appeared in my mind.
 How are u over there???

=')

I've missed you since you've been away

I would hold you in my armsI would take the pain away

Thank you for all you've done

There's nothing I wouldn't do

To hear your voice again

Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

If I had just one more day, 

I would tell you how much that

I've missed you since you've been away

seriously...it is still HURT!

today is my lunar month birthday...
i still recall my memory...

i used to force her to remember this day...

as i go visit her in this morning...

i found out...

my tear will still fall whenever i see her and think about her...

sometime i was thinking of looking someone for chit-chat...

but...not the right to chat with too...

when come out with friends, i choose for the happiness...

but not my emo expression...im still covering myself...
sometime all i need is just a hug...=P

i guess i make this blog alive...

just to for me to descried how i feel... 

at least a place to release my emotion...?!

some of u will still come back to this blog...

a big thanks to u all...i do mean it...

and u know who u are...=)

how are u? =)

I miss u so badly my dear...=(

是不是這樣的夜晚你才會這樣的想起我

"what if"

不勉强你再为了我

心不在留不留都是痛

我可以抱你吗 宝贝

容我最后一次这样叫你

你也不得已

我会笑笑地离去

sometime i was thinking...

what if 1 day, 

i forget about her smile...

what if,

i forget about her tears...

what if,

i forget about her hugs...

what if,

i forget about how good she been to me...

what if,

i forget about her sound...

what if, what if....

im still feeling so hard sometime,

when i look into something and it mind remind me of something,

or even recall some of the memory...

seriously, i really scare of "what if"

 从几时开始,我变得多愁善感... 

眼泪变得那么的浅... 

容易对些人事物,勾起你我两的回忆??? 

我讨厌寂寞的夜里... 

我怀念拥抱的感觉... 

我需要聆听的耳朵... 

 还记得 

你对我的最后的一句话竟然是... 

byebye!!! 

 有时想想,我还真的不甘心... 

 你放心...我会好好的. =)

what kind of mood i having now?

In this holiday season, and so the lonely night...

I'm so so down...feel cold deep in my heart...

I really need u need u now...:(

And then she ask me...do i look alright?

And i say u look wonderful tonight..

YOU

it is YOU in my mind recently,

cant stop flowing around my mind...

sometime i think i smell YOU...

sometime i think i dream of YOU...

sometime i did hope that YOU are here for me...

sometime i do need your to talk with me...

i miss YOU like hell...i do mean it...

='(

a little bit of emoooo....

guess this the most emotional song can only express my mood now.

been playing this song and over again...

"good job, Adele" =)

"someone like you"

I heard

That you're settled down

That you

Found a girl

And you'RE

Married now

I heard

That your dreams came true

I guess she gave you things

I didn't give to you

OLD friend

Why ARE you so shy

Ain't like you to hold back

Or hide from the light

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it

I hoped you'd see my face and THAT YOU'D be reminded

That for me

It isn't over

Nevermind

I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best

For you too

Don't forget me

I begGED

I'll remember you said

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Yeah

You know how the time flies

Only yesterday

It was the time of our lives

We were born and raised

In a summer haze

Bound by the surprise

Of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited

But I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it

I hoped you'd see my face and THAT YOU'D be reminded

That for me

It isn't over

Nevermind

I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best

For you too

Don't forget me

I begGED

I'll remember you said

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Nothing compares

No worries or cares

Regrets and mistakes

And memories made

Who would have known

How bittersweet

This would taste

Nevermind

I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best

For you too

Don't forget me

I begGED

I'll remember you said

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Nevermind

I'll find someone like you

I wish nothing but the best

For you too

Don't forget me

I begGED

I'll remember you said

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

Sometimes it lasts in love

But sometimes it hurts instead

The one and only celebration me and her. =)

To celebrate her birthday, i search for a lot restaurant in pg.

Even through ipoh, cause there is a restaurant name "josephine".

but after all of the consideration, i had choose 1 in pg.

And then...before we start over the dinner,

i told her that i book the entire restaurant for just u and me.

Of course she look at me with doubtful eye. XD

but eating halfway...she told there is a indian guy coming in...i turn over directly then she laugh at me cause my lies just broke...hahahha (but luckily that indian wasnt come for dinner, just asking for direction from the waiter.)

but it is nice dinner that, they did serve both of u for the night only.

equally to i book up the entire restaurant...hahhaha...

i told her...dont expect too much...i just bringing u eat at roadside only...XD

meal that she took...she almost cant finish it~hahaha =P

She never expect i actually buy her a stalk of flower again...(i send her one in her office at morning.) but it is worth it cause i saw the happiness from her. =D

finally both of us having a photo. =)

Happy birthday to u yea..grad that i got u as my lover for a year. =)

i miss these dayss.....see 1year just pass over like this...

ok stop here...my tear is about to cross my eye d. ='(